the realization that every breath you take is for you and others too...... that's parenthood for you.
anybody who has or had a kid or kids and is in their right state of mind knows what im talking bout.i mean you can have 5 kids but there is only one first time.
7/7/2012 around 22:45 sibeso nawa ,known to others as bluberri hornet, referred to by me as "my khaleesi" gave birth to a boy, our son JAMAL YAMIKANI BANDA .now i aint gonna front i was in Chicago's downing whiskey shots and lagers with my homie, so im not gonna be all "i was there through it all" heck i only heard bout it the next day as my phone was off.+i think im drifting here back to the topic+
when you have your first kid your own childhood flashes right before your eyes , the highs the lows , the ups and downs and you like automatically download all the actions, re-actions, words and all that you remember seeing , hearing and feeling from your parents because parenthood doesn't have a manual or an 8 easy steps e-book. all we have is what we learnt from our parents which then allow us to say "imma be such and such a parent and do things like pops but matters of such imma re-act differently"+back to the topic+
parenthood also comes with life changes , like "maybe let me just get a six pack and chill at the crib instead of hitting the clubs tonight coz tomorrow i gotta get some diapers" . i also got something outta the season finale for how i met your mother from Marshal and Lilly , after the have a lil boy.
DO NOT APPROACH ME WITH ANY STORY, EVENT , SITUATION THAT'S NOT A 7 OR ABOVE!!!! i mean i have a whole other life i am in charge of for now at least so i cannot you energy time and concentration on trivial shit .
now people ask why Jamal yamikani and well its what me and his mom cam up with. the first time i saw lil yamjam i could see Lukas , i mean dude looked like lukey for real and people always ask why didn't you name him after lukas and let me just say as much as i would have loved to i don't believe in naming kids after other people and family members for one simple reason, i wont my child to be an individual with his own path to set and not a reflection of peoples memories and emotions. every time he/she does something sembe kwenze "moonga chabe bena ba zena"or" anapala che (put name here) but that's how he/she was/is . besides it not secret THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE LUKAS "LUKASTAR" BANDA +back to topic+
i never ever saw myself as a father.i never imagined that me and sibeso would ever be these people. i never ever imagine my family seeing me as a mature , responsible adult. and the twist t all this is now that things are the way i am i never saw myself wanting this life so so much.iam so happy to be a father , a future husband to the woman , the only girl i have ever loved.got me thinking like if my life was a string timeline which small event can i call the "nail pin" a small event that lead to a series of bigger more life impacting events .... and i pin point it all down to the day my khaleesi believed me when i asked her to believe in me and ever since i think subconsciously all i do is juts me tryna show her that i can and me being scared of disappointing her.so +back to the topic+ 7/7/2012 the day Jamal was born can be the next "nail pin" in my life and i have made it my mission to make sure the series of events that will follow henceforth will be successes coz now i gotta leave something behind when i die, not only for my lil man but his mother and all that might follow.... AND FAILURE IS NEVER AN OPTION
#thoughtsofapredicatehustler
As we would often shout during debate class at secondary school when a valid point was raised...."SEEEEEENSE!!!!"
ReplyDeletehow come am only seeing this today lol guess around this time internet was the last thing on my mind.
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