The Curious Case of Benjamin Button: HOOD EDITION

 AH..the year was 2008...T.I had just dropped paper trail and Lil wayne dropped the carter 3....good times....Brad Pitt and Taranji P .Hendeson had just dropped a gem :the Curious case of Benjamin Button.....a weird movie about a man who was aging backwards so to say.joe buddden even dropped a killer bar..."im on my grind benjamin hunting,been old since i was young call me benjamin button"....bars right....if youre from where im from and the time period i rep...you know what it means to have to be old at such a young age...my brother and i were working by age 17,providing on the low by 18....dating ,chilling,and spending crazy dough by 20.Nas once said "since age 16 i havent grown a day old"...thats how i feel sometimes....didnt go to uni or college as a teen ,didnt travel the world,didnt take a year of to take a sabatical ....just 16,fresh out of school and placed on the street as a hustler.i always say i am a Product Of My Environment aka hustlers P.O.M.E.i also was always in a serious relationship with ...you know who....so i didnt get to play around....(note now i am divorced and grown..i had my ka little run,but im not the playful type and actual prefer being in a real situationship)...i digress....but heres the deal....i never had the chance to be young...i was always required to be old....so....now that im old... i just wanna be you,does that make sense?

  so........10 years later....here i am ....leroy freaking banda ...the brown hornet...dot b...the one who has has the vision....lol.

a lot has happened in 10 years...jamals grown....im divorced....single....but madly in love.stronger,faster,bigger,wiser,smarter......less involved...what would be the perfect comeback topic...

love...overrated...hate...never given enough attention...loyalty....my fam still strong and deep....lust....im a lusaka boy lol....but....individualism... the ability to be yourself....

feeling like a mac..in a room....surrounded by some pcs (lol)....i haave learnt a few things in the past decade.

1.it doesnt matter

2.even if it does,it only matters to you.

3.and if it does... make it happen.

i have successfully ,even in my struggles,raised a special needs child.....

i did what wasnt expected of me...a drunk....a junkie.... a black sheep... a failure....but...i still did it...amd did it well....God creates people like me every 1000 years or so... and he created a fther and son combo so extreme...we didnt know how to deal with it.jamal...thats my motivation.

so until next time,weather its next week or in 10 years......we did it...we survived.